Hawk's Fight with Buck
(Alternative version of the fight scene from "Time of the Hawk")
thought that he could handle the pain and grief that he has endured
through the past few days. The
loss of his people and, most of all, his beloved mate, but his injuries,
capture by humans, and the inability to make an escape had been bad
enough. But now the indignity of having tubes put into his body had
pushed Hawk to his limits of what he could possibly take mentally and
felt trapped and the humans would now be able to do things to him without
him being able to stop them. That
and the fact that they would also keep him from joining Koori was too much
for Hawk. He struggled to
maintain his hold on his emotions, but gradually the strain of trying to
keep control began to take effect. Hawk
found himself slipping closer and closer to losing whatever power he had
over himself. He realized
that his hard earned discipline was starting to break down.
to take it anymore, Hawk yelled at Dr. Goodfellow. "Koori and I had only been mates for about a month!
Twelve of those days we had spent at "the Soaring Place"
where all newly bonded mates go to be together!
When we came back to our people, we found that everyone waiting for
our return was killed by humans! Those
murdering humans butchered everyone including the children!"
finally broke down and started shaking and crying from grief and all the
events that has happened to him. Everyone
and everything that he ever cared about was gone forever only to leave a
void in his heart. Unable to
just stand by and see such a young creature in pain, Dr. Goodfellow put
his arms around Hawk to console him.
know what it is like to lose a wife as I am a widower as well.
It has been a few years since my wife's death."
Dr. Goodfellow told Hawk repeatedly as he started to squirm in Dr.
Goodfellow's arms. "It
will be all right, my boy. It will be all right."
that he showed any weakness to a human in his vulnerable state, Hawk
continued to try to get out of the doctor's hold, but could only move his
head to one side away from Dr. Goodfellow.
He could not believe that a human would possibly care about him to
try and comfort him. But Dr.
Goodfellow gently took Hawk's head with one hand and held it against his
own head. The doctor's kind
words and gentle touch finally got through to Hawk and gradually Hawk's
squirming came to a stop.
apologized between sobs. "I'm
sorry ... for yelling at you ... elder ... doctor."
Goodfellow told Hawk. "Apology
accepted. It is all right.
I understand your pain."
managed to control his crying long enough to ask. "Doctor Goodfellow,
just how long were you and your mate together?"
sadly, Dr. Goodfellow told him. "We
were happily married for 55 years and had two boys and two girls."
began crying and shaking again. "Koori
and I ... also hoped ... to have children. We ... we thought ... we would
... try again ... next month ... and Koori ... would have ... become
pregnant ... by then ... but
Koori's death ... it ended that hope."
am so sorry, my dear boy. I
am so sorry," Dr. Goodfellow said softly, hoping his compassionate
embrace would be a comfort to Hawk.
Goodfellow held Hawk until the birdman had calmed down enough to stop his
shaking and crying. Then
gently, the doctor wiped away Hawk's tears from his face as he murmured
words of comfort. The gentle
touch of the doctor was a much needed solace that Hawk thought he could
never experience with a human. The
fact that he was not afraid to be held by this human surprised him.
It made Hawk wonder if there were more things about humans that he
had been wrong about.
calmer, Hawk looked at Dr. Goodfellow and said. "I am surprised that you would show so much concern for
me even though I am not human."
Goodfellow told Hawk. "I
have had many patients over my years as a doctor and many were not human.
As far as I am concerned all life-forms whether they are human or
are similar to or not deserve to be treated with respect no matter what
they look like."
Goodfellow's admitted concern for all life forms allowed Hawk to finally
feel that he could trust this elder healer with his life. The genuine concern that the doctor expressed during the time
he had been in the sickbay surprised Hawk so much that he started to feel
caring and concern for Doctor Goodfellow in return.
asked. "How long will I have to have these devices in me and be in
Goodfellow said. "It
would be for about a week as you still need to heal fully.
But, Hawk, if you can demonstrate that you will not fight the
restraints and stop begging to be allowed to die and eat, and then you
will have the feeding tube, catheter and restraints removed within two
agreed with a faint smile. "I will agree to stop fighting the
restraints, the begging to be allowed to die and I will eat."
a reassuring smile, Dr. Goodfellow told Hawk.
"That is good, my dear boy.
The lack of proper food and rest has taken a toll on you.
Now, you need to rest. I
can I give you a sedative to help you with the healing process?"
you can." Hawk said as
he allowed Dr. Goodfellow to sedate him without protest, then his eyes
closed and he fell into a deep, peaceful sleep.
days later, Hawk's feeding tube, catheter and restraints were removed.
Hawk was relieved to be finally released from them.
When Nurse Jensen came in with breakfast, Hawk was surprised to
find that he was able to finish the entire meal.
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